Cannabis Better Than Depression Meds for This Vet
I never tried cannabis until I retired from the Army; I was attending a community college in Dayton Ohio when a fellow student found out I had never tried cannabis and gifted me a nicely rolled joint concealed in an Altoids tin. At the time I was a self-medicating with alcohol. After about 8 beers on a Saturday night, I decided to try weed while in the hot tub. I instantly loved it! That euphoric feeling and sense of well being was so much better than what I would feel from alcohol. Unfortunately, being 41, it was kind of hard to become a new customer from those who typically sold it around here. So my self medicating with alcohol continued.
I would often travel to Maryland to see an old Army friend. This friend opened up to me about her cannabis use and how it had helped her with a myriad of medical conditions and illnesses. After that, I guess you could call her my weed doctor (“dealer is such a nasty name).
I was already on Lexapro for chronic depression. And, initially Lexapro was absolutely a life changer. I went from feeling like a spring was about to burst inside of me to a sense of calm and soothing relief. Unfortunately, as time went on, it had negative and serious side effects: My depression got worse, I started having suicidal ideation, and several times toyed with the 9mm in my nightstand and would point it toward my head and mouth but thankfully never completed the act.
I must have had a glimpse of hope. I’m so thankful to this day that I never completed that dark act. I’ve had so much joy and fulfillment since. Consulting my devastated wife about my condition, we decided that I should ween off of Lexapro. She knew that I was depressed, but had no idea to the extent of my depression – those that suffer mental illness are very good at hiding their true condition from others.
As I weened myself from Lexapro, I felt relief from the darkness that had enveloped me. Around the same time I started using cannabis more each day instead of just weekends. What I found was, the more I used it the better I felt. Not only did I feel great while I used it, I felt a residual affect the morning and afternoon after use. As I continued to use cannabis my alcohol use was basically eliminated. I do drink socially but rarely do I have more than 2 drinks at a time. And another thing about cannabis, no more hangovers!!!
Unfortunately, I live in a prohibition state, so I have to continue to live like a criminal. It’s sad that veterans aren’t allowed to choose a plant over a handful of death causing pharmaceuticals. Money over lives, right? But there is a green wave crossing this nation that will not be stopped. Stigmas and propaganda are disappearing and peer reviewed research and anecdotal stories of health and jubilation are stampeding their way to the forefront. I just hope that legislators change current cannabis laws and legalize before more service members die.
Currently, I typically use flower at night (a bowl’s worth) around 1900 (7 PM for you civilians ;o )). At 2100 I have one half of an edible infused cannabis cookie. After over 30 years of insomnia, I sleep like a baby. My hope is that everyone who has refused to consider cannabis as a medicine will give that some serious reconsidering. It saved my life, and for that I am eternally grateful.